The “Jordan” Full of Spiders

//The “Jordan” Full of Spiders

The “Jordan” Full of Spiders

Earlier in the week I read the question for today’s blog hop:  “What is the Jordan River in your life? What is the one thing about which you would say, “I will do anything God asks me to do-as long as it is not that?”  I have thought and thought and thought about the one thing? ……

Had you asked me ten years ago what the Jordan River was in my life, I would have given you a list which reached clear to the ground. A list of circumstances I would have refused to do or was afraid would happen! Of course, this was before I journeyed through many of the very things on the list.

Ten years ago, I didn’t even want to think about sitting at the bedside and watch my folks pass into eternity. However, eight years ago this month, I read Psalms 23 at my Mother’s bedside as she was ushered into heaven. And seven years ago next month, I watched my Dad raise his arms to someone I couldn’t see, turn to wink at me and pass into a life of no more pain or sorrow! While difficult at the time, these two memories are now some of the most precious in my life. What a gift I was given to be able to witness my folks passing into their Heavenly home!

Last evening as hubby and I were visited about some changes we believe are coming to our lives, I had a sense of peace with those changes. Right now we live in a large four bedroom home, the very one I grew up in.  It is a home with decades of delightful memories!! Five years ago, when we remodeled this home it was my Jordan River. It has a beautiful kitchen and all the necessities I ever needed and many which we really don’t.  No way, no how…would I have considered moving.  In fact, I even made the comment to some of my friends that this was my last move. You know what they say about  “never say never!”   Hubby and I realize there is coming a day when we cross this particular “Jordan,” load up the boxes, the memories and move to the place God has laid on our hearts.

Now back to the question at hand.  What is the one “Jordan River” in my life? Is there one? What is the one thing that I can’t fathom doing? I hesitate to type out this answer. Because in the last few years, God pushed me into or allowed the “never” to come in.

Ok.  I can do this.  Writing it out is no big deal…Deep breath….1, 2…..3!

Overseas missions. …

I closed my eyes and typed it! But I wrote it out!!

With three grandchildren and one more on the way,  I can’t imagine answering the call to live overseas.  I would miss so much of my children and grandkids lives. Let me be totally honesty here. I know if God would chose to call us overseas, I would kick and scream the whole trip! And pry even during the Missions stay. Not only because of the relationships would I miss at home. But because of the spiders!

Yes, I said spiders. I have this crazy fear of spiders, even granddaddy long legs. In my mind, I know anywhere I might live overseas has to be full of spiders. My mind’s eye sees; brown recluse, tarantulas and black widows. So, for me this is enough to say, “I can’t do this!”

I can give up my home, and make significant other changes….but to live overseas away from our children and grandchildren and live with spiders….well; I guess one could say that is a river I don’t intend to cross!

**This post is part of the Blog Hop from Melissa Taylor’s online Bible Studies.  We are currently studying the book, Greater, by Steven Furtick

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  1. Lauren B (OBS Group Leader) January 10, 2013 at 12:07 pm - Reply

    Bridgit ~ You Rock Sister! You are listening to God’s calling and that is awesome! Thank you for sharing your heart. He is going to be shinning through you so bright when you come up out of the Jordan and are sharing his word across seas into the hearts who need his word! I am praising you. Please keep us posted our your journey I can not wait to hear more!

    God Bless you! <3

    • bgraciesmith January 10, 2013 at 12:27 pm - Reply

      Thanks Lauren for your vote of confidence! Be praying the spider webs get out of the way!! LOL 🙂 ~b

  2. Nancy January 10, 2013 at 1:18 pm - Reply

    I love this! You rock. I hope you can fly across the Jordon as you head to your mission. This is wonderful!

    While I am a fan of spiders, I have that same reaction to snakes. Someone told me that I needed to read about the good that snakes do in the great plan. Maybe if you try that, it will help you deal a little bit better with those critters.

    What a wonderful adventure is ahead!

    • bgraciesmith January 10, 2013 at 2:17 pm - Reply

      Thank you for the suggestion about reading what good spiders do. I will be fine as long as there are not pictures. Even when I wrote the post, I had to hold my hand over the picture of the tarantula when I went in to see that I had spelled it correctly. LOL 🙂
      Thanks for stopping by! ~b

  3. Barbara Prince January 10, 2013 at 6:04 pm - Reply

    It is funny how we each have our “Jordan”, sometimes God’s call us to “dip” in them and sometimes He just calls us to be willing. I wish I could go on a missions trip. I would love that call, but I don’t sense it coming. So, I do what I can to support my churches missionaries out on the field. I have a feeling that it God called you, He would give you the heart to go, willingly.

    • bgraciesmith January 10, 2013 at 8:44 pm - Reply

      Thank you Barb! I always think of the Ray Boltz song, “Thank you for giving to the Lord.” God has everyone give in their own special way, doesn’t he? Some give financially and some give of their time and talents. I honestly don’t feel like God is calling me to overseas missions. However, my 2013 word is Listen. So, I am praying and trying to listen to what He is asking us to do. God bless you for the financial gifts you give to those in missions! ~b

  4. Debbie W. (OBS Leader) January 11, 2013 at 7:01 am - Reply

    Thanks for sharing your story. Loved the part about missions and grandkids because we are expecting our first – but that spider story is not my favorite. HA! I do not like spiders or snakes. Hugs as you work to jump the Jordan. Debbie Williams (OBS Leader)

    • bgraciesmith January 11, 2013 at 8:14 am - Reply

      Debbie~Grandkids…well. I can’t even put a word to what it is to be a grandparent! Priceless!! Congratulations on your first! You will just love being a Grandma!! 🙂
      thanks for stopping by ~b

  5. brittany jacobson January 12, 2013 at 3:32 am - Reply

    wow i love your blog i can relate to not want to go on a mission over seas i dont like spiders either. and your blog tottaly described me . thank you for your blog it was beautiful

    • bgraciesmith January 13, 2013 at 9:52 pm - Reply

      Thanks Brittany for stopping by! ~b

  6. Aisha January 19, 2013 at 12:48 pm - Reply

    I would love to do a missions trip however, it is a bit scary for me. Thanks so much for sharing – & I don’t like spiders either.

    • bgraciesmith January 21, 2013 at 3:47 pm - Reply

      Thanks Aisha for stopping by…If it is your hearts cry to do a missions trip, I pray that some day you will be able to. As for the spiders, why did God make them? 🙂

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