And the Lord answered me and said, Write the vision and engrave it so plainly upon tablets that everyone who passes may [be able to] read [it easily and quickly] as he hastens by. For the vision is yet for an appointed time and it hastens to the end [fulfillment]; it will not deceive or disappoint. Though it tarry, wait [earnestly] for it, because it will surely come; it will not be behindhand on its appointed day. (Habakkuk 2:2, Amplified)
It was 2005 and in my mind, we were on the fast track to becoming house parents in a maternity home. My heart had always been sensitive to young women who were facing an unplanned pregnancy. And for years, I pulled out my soap box, sharing my opinion on abortion to all who were within ear shot! So, this had to be God’s good and perfect will. Right?
The potential home owners asked, hubby agreed and the house was picked out. Yet, God closed the door. Ok. Not just closed. Slammed that door shut! While I had thought it was the appointed time, God whispered “no, no yet.” However, I missed the “not yet.” So, in my heart and mind, the vision faded away and life continued on.
Even in the continuation of life, God was working behind the scenes. He had to. You see, it wasn’t that I had missed His appointed time. It was because He had to continue to do some work in me, so I would be more prepared for His good and perfect timing.
So, I did what I had done for years! I kicked and screamed through the changes.In my short sightedness, I was unable to see these were the changes God needed in order to fulfill His appointed time.
I wish I could say I waited earnestly for the dream to become a reality. But honestly, I didn’t! In fact, I spent some days grumbling. Grumbling, complaining and more grumbling. This happened and then more happened. This. Was. Not. What. I. Had. Planned! My folks died, kids grew up, adult children made choices I hoped they would avoid. All the while God faithfully chipped away at the areas in my heart which needed smoothed. My pharisaical attitude was uncovered and through brokenness, God redeemed. Insecurities and false self- images, which plagued me for years, were transformed into a confidence only found through Christ.
Last February, God’s appointed time came and the vision became fresh. I. Said. YES! These last few months have been filled with a fresh start and a fresh passion. Allowing me to live out His #FreshVision for my life.
For those of you who are still “In the Waiting,” I encourage you to draw closer to God. He is true to His promises…and what He has promised you will come to pass!
** I accepted the director position at the Pregnancy Care Center of Lawrence, moving five months ahead of my husband. Since that time, we have been walking through what it means to say Yes. Our Yes, included a radical life change. Both of us are learning about totally trusting Him! For hubby, he is still patiently (and some days, not so patiently) waiting God’s timing for a job. For me, I am learning more about His strength through my weaknesses! Then, trying to remember it is His perfect timing not mine! 😉