Giving my spotlight to the Son
When I was 5 years old, I accompanied my mother to the Nutcracker Ballet. I loved watching the battle between the mice and soldiers. I became mesmerized by the Snow Queen. However, my favorite was the Sugar Plum Fairy. She was beautiful. Her pink tutu sparkled under the lights as she twirled around the stage. Wide eyed, I looked up at my mom and said: “I am going to be her one day.”
So from the ages of 5-18, I believed that my sole purpose in life was to be the Sugar Plum Fairy. Ballet was my life. While other peers experienced sports, band, and the world known as “teen dating,” I was at the dance studio stretching and pirouetting away.
Despite bleeding toes, I worked hard and eventually became a soloist. By the time my senior year in High School rolled around, I thought that the coveted part of Sugar Plum Fairy would be mine.
Finally, the cast list was posted. I raced to the studio, heart pounding. This was the day I had waited for. When I read the name beside Sugar Plum Fairy, my world literally stopped. My name was not there. I did not get to dance the part of the Sugar Plum Fairy.
My dream ended
As you can imagine, the days that followed were awful. My heart was broken into a million pieces. I wanted to quit, but my parents encouraged me to keep my head up and to dance the part that I was given to the best of my ability.
So I did.
A couple of weeks after the performance ended, I received a card in the mail from a lady I had never met. Here, is a portion of what she wrote:
“Dearest Tracy, a little bird told me that you were not chosen to dance the part of the Sugar Plum Fairy and that it stung your heart and pierced your eyes with tears. I watched you rise above your tears and discouragement. I want you to know that you danced splendidly in the part God chose just for you. You have given me the courage to face my own fear of discouragement and to go for my dreams. You have given me a Nutcracker memory that I will cherish forever. Your devoted fan, Yvonne”
I was speechless.
The part God chose just for you…
The part God chose…
These words have stuck in my heart since 1993. They have changed everything.
A piece of my mosaic
God’s part for me was never to wear that pink tutu. My part was to minister to a discouraged and fearful woman. This was His part for me. Sure, having my name in the program, the roses, and applause would have been wonderful. Yet, those things fade away…
I believe that the words in this stranger’s letter were God’s words to me. They will never fade away. His applause over me will never end.
Fitted perfectly, piece by piece
I have learned that there are no small parts in God’s plan for my life. There is no second or third chair, no runner up, and no minor league. I am His leading lady.
Now when I take my place on stage, it is to open and teach God’s Word. I am not surprised that one of my darkest moments has turned into one of the brightest displays of God’s goodness. I pray that it encourages those of you who feel as though you have lost or that what you are doing doesn’t matter.
As I continue to walk with Jesus, He is helping me to embrace the pieces of my mosaic that are smooth, and those that are rough and jagged. He is opening my eyes and heart to see that His hands of grace are fitting them all together perfectly, piece by piece. My completed mosaic looks nothing like a Sugar Plum Fairy. My completed mosaic resembles the beautiful image of Jesus Christ.
I am in awe of Him.
And my toes look a lot better these days…
About the Author:
Tracy Steel is proudly married to Chad, a pilot in the United States Air Force. Whenever they are not being relocated, she loves to drink green tea and watch re-runs of LOST. She also enjoys chasing their two children, Jackson (3) and Katherine (1), throughout their toy-infested home. Tracy is also the author of Images of His Beauty, a newly released Bible Study, for young women who struggle with self-image issues and eating disorders. You can find out more information about the study and follow her blog at www.onedegreeministries.com. You can also connect with her on Facebook at www.facebook.com/OneDegreeMinistries, or chat with her via twitter @tracy_steel.